just don't sit there

So, I always have wondered why I have like spurts of ideas and just things to write about and then like dead times where i have such a writers block. I figured it out. I'm not gonna lie- the times that I write, are the times that I am struggling the most. and searching for answers-- Like writing is an outlet for me. Just getting what is on my mind out- almost like if i see it -- I will more likely believe it. I write what is in my head- so maybe it will penetrate really my own heart. Interesting huh? Sometimes you learn new things about yourself everyday lol

I am sitting here, on a Friday night- - - so burdened, listening to love songs with Delilah who soothes me...haha- - - listening to the stories of people who call in on her "sappy love songs" radio show.. so touching. so . . . depressing. haha... nah really this is such a distraction from what is really on my heart.

It seems that we all wear masks a lot. We have a different mask for every person, situation, day, hour. . . do we really know who we are? Do we really believe what we are supposed to?

Yeah- what do you hear all the time? --- you are made in the image of God, find your Identity in Christ, don't place your worth in other people- what people think of you, - you are the daughter of the King. . . I so want to believe these things with all my heart but sometimes it is harder than others.

Of course I know all of this, and i believe it with some of my heart- but when i am struggling at times- it is harder to believe.

So what do you believe? - who are you? are you who you want to be?

What masks are you putting on? what is really going on in your heart?

Are we afraid to find out?

I am finding out more and more that I am afraid of a lot of things. . . that I didn't even realize. Until I deal with all these things I am afraid of- it is going to cloud my mind of the TRUTH of Jesus.

You just can't want something- you just can't want something to happen- you've gotta believe in it. and believe in it with all your heart.

Just like Jesus says- Love the Lord with ALL your heart, with ALL your soul and with ALL your mind.

He wouldn't have said anything that we weren't supposed to believe and do and trust and just ahhh ya know?

It is time to BELIEVE. It is time to ACT. It is time to stop just sitting around and wanting things, it is time to pursue them. believe you can overcome, believe God does truly love you, believe that He really does got you and He ISNT LETTING GO. He will never let you go. He will never let you down. He will never break His promises. It is time to quit knowing and start believing.

a quote i heard the other day was- - - the key to change is to let go of fear.


Psalm 56:3-4
When I am afraid, I will trust in you. In God, whose word I praise, in God I trust; I will not be afraid.

Isaiah 41:10
So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.

1 Chronicles 28:20
Be strong and courageous, and do the work. Do not be afraid or discouraged, for the LORD God, my God, is with you. He will not fail you or forsake you

Jesus said, "Do not fear, only believe." Mark 5:36


SO....in all that mumble jumble.....BELIEVE. God will never lie to you. He always tells you the truth and it is just foolish not to believe Him. - - in that belief you will find who you are - -

Uncover that mask. search deep inside for all those unanswered fears and questions- bring them before God- trust and believe in Him and then, just rest in His arms. He will not let you go. He will give you a peace that surpasses all understanding.

Make the connection from your Head to your Heart and NEVER let anything break that connection.

uncover.believe & act

{embrace the journey}

Suddenly

[suddenly] [by:superchick]

She feels lost in her own life
Treading water just to keep from slipping under
And she wonders if she's where she's supposed to be
Tired of trying to do it right
Her dreams are just to far away to see how steps she's making
Might be taking her to who she'll be

Chorus:
And suddenly it isn't what it used to be
And after all this time it worked out just fine
And suddenly I am where I'm supposed to be
And after all the tears I was supposed to be here

She feels locked in her own life
Scared of what she might lose if she moves away from who she was
And she's afraid of being free
There's a way she knows is right
She can't feel the things she knows
And so each step she's taking is a step of faith toward who she'll be

And here where the night is darkest black
She feels the fear and the light is farthest back
And through her tears she can't see the dawn is coming
Skies will clear and the light will find her where she's always been


Have you ever been there?

i am just being reminded each and everyday that God is molding us into the person he has made us to be. you may not see it now, but when you look back you will see how God has worked wonders in your life to use you in specific ways. God has you where He wants you. You know, just go along with Him and you know what? He will take you where you need to go- and one day the skies will clear and you will see where you are and the journey that got you there. clarity will come- it just may take many uncertain days, tearful moments, unsuccessful tries, falling and getting back up, dark cloudy days, foggy times, bright sunny days, fun times, good times, lovely times, heart aches, heart leaps, trapped feelings, vulnerable moments, crazy u-turns and back again, treading waters only to be rescued from it all-- however all to experience this amazing journey just to enter a life of who God has called you to be. It wouldn't be a journey without all of it.

suddenly it will all make sense.
suddenly the dawn will come.
suddenly the journey will feel worthwhile.
suddenly clarity will be revealed.
suddenly the journey will make sense.
suddenly you will know the person you are meant to be.
suddenly God take you where you never imagined you would go.

that suddenly will come. . .just embrace the journey. wait on the Lord. follow His Words. obey Him simply. love Him completely. and when you do that suddenly will arrive and God will start making it clear to you why He worked the way He did for His glory in your life.

- - - rely on Him. trust in Him. and when the storms come and the winds blow - - - remember- - - He's got ya.

"being confident of this, that he who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus." Philippians 1:6

{embrace the journey}

okay..soo in TRBC youth group they started a new series on FEAR. now there are some pretty wack fears out there...here are some to name a few:

fear of...

Chins- Geniophobia
Laughter- Geliophobia
Looking up- Anablephobia
Names- Nomatophobia
Peanut butter sticking to the roof of the mouth- Arachibutyrophobia
Shadows- Sciophobia
Long words- Hippopotomonstrosesquipped

aliophobia


Then while i was looking at the lonnng list of phobias i found some that kinda fit me

fear of...

Being alone- Autophobia (i hate being alone. i do not like going places by myself, also i desire that lifetime companion and i do not want to be alone--my dad left my family and i never want that to happen to me)
Corpses- Necrophobia (i cannot look at dead people.)
Crossing streets- Agyrophobia or Dromophobia (I HATE CROSSING STREETS!!!)
Falling or being in love- Philophobia (ive been hurt so many times by people that i have put my whole heart into and i'm afraid that once i find that true love i will only be set up for another heartbreak...but then again love without risks is not love at all. you've gotta take a chance- - -however i saw my mom get hurt so much in her marriage and i never want that to happen to me)
Rape- Virginitiphobia (i am so afraid of this)

but probably my number one fear is ...the fear of the future.

but is what God says...

I know what I'm doing. I have it all planned out—plans to take care of you, not abandon you, plans to give you the future you hope for.
Jeremiah 29:11

that is a PROMISE! and i am SO thankful of that.

God assured us, "I'll never let you down, never walk off and leave you,"

That is the first part of Hebrews 13:5...okay that's a promise...soak it in...amazing...now read the second part of the verse...


we can boldly quote, God is there, ready to help; I'm fearless no matter what. Who or what can get to me?

"I'm fearLESS, NO MATTER WHAT"!! wow ... no one can get me, nothing can touch me. God is always going to be there, all i have to do is lay everything at his feet. and trust in Him that he is going to work everything out for His glory and for His purpose alone. .. yeah I am going to cross streets again, but i do not have to let that fear take over my life. no fear should take over your life.
I do have to admit the fear of the future has taken my life from me at moments and i am learning every moment of every day to trust in Him.

READ Joseph's story in the Bible. talk about a wild, horrible, trial filled, whoa kind of life ... but God worked His glory through it and every circumstance shaped Joseph into the person that God created him to be.
i mean throughout his whole life he went through trial after trial and he kept faithful to the lord. i mean he had to of thought like why the heck am i goin through this...and then later he saw how God worked through a circumstance to build him to the person he became and good came out of everything he did== God's glory was shown through him despite of events his life. looking back on his life he saw how God worked through each heartache and pain to. he prob didnt understand at the moment, but in the end everything was for a purpose.

his story is encouraging me so much right now. bc right now i dont understand somethings or i dont know what i will be doing next-im fearful of that, but i know it is all in God's plan and He is working through every circumstance to build my character and my failures and victories to shape me into who He has created me to be. He is working everything for his glory.

So all i need to do is lay my fears at His feet, and He will take care of them.

The only fear we need to have in this life is the Fear of the Lord.

"The fear of the LORD is the beginning of wisdom;all those who practice it have a good understanding.
Psalm 111:10

(btw, psalms and proverbs is full of verses concerning the fear of the Lord)

Who doesn't want wisdom and understanding? everyone! ... and the Fear of the Lord is the only way to gain it.

Easier said than done...huh?

but that is the encouragement and challenge of life. - to lay our fears to the Lord- let Him take them from us so we can experience His peace-

Even though I am coming to a cross roads of graduating soon and not know what is going to happen next, what i will be doing or where i will be, ive gotta trust the Lord that he is taking care of me and is working HIS plan in my life. . .

Place your fears in the hands of our Heavenly Father. He keeps His promises. You can trust Him. He's got ya :)

{embrace the journey}