i missed it

So, this morning i slept through my alarm, i missed my alarm waking me up. like i didnt even snooze it...i didnt hear it! Now this is not the day that i needed to sleep through my alarm. . . I have two tests that i needed to study for....big difference wanting to wake up at 5am and waking up at 8am. And now i am so discombobulated that i can barely concentrate on studying .my mind just thinks in all sorts of analogies. i cant seem to turn it off.

this morning i practically missed the opportunity to study. i missed the very thing that was telling me to get up and jump on that opportunity. i completely missed it.

how many times do we miss what God has for us to do? how many times do we just sleep through him talking to us? how many times do we miss his alarm calls to wake us up from our own apathy to do something he wants us to do or we were too tired to even hear his voice?

"Be still and know that I am God" Psalm 46:10

when i think of that verse I think of listening to God. we may think we are being still sometimes but are we truly? what does it mean to be completely still in the presence of God? our bodies being still? our thoughts be still? our emotions be still? in our busyness of life God does have to remind us that HE is GOD and to quiet our lives down so we understand that- so we are not too busy to hear Him, so we are not too busy to understand Him, to understand and hear what He wants us to do.

so what im trying to get at i guess is don't miss an opportunity of hearing God's voice. Don't miss the opportunity when God tells you--when he tries putting it right in your ear but you are too tired to even hear what he is trying to say. Because when you miss it, you will feel all discombobulated, not able to focus, not able to fully carry out what God has you to do and it's harder to get started/to hear again.

don't miss it.


{embrace the journey}

question.

So today I have been in a writing kind of mood. . . on the last post i had written out all of my thoughts that were going through my mind ... and the more i read it, the more i was like hmm i shouldn't have really written all of that out. mainly afraid of what people would think of me if they knew really what was going through my head, and heart.

and then i have been thinkin about it all day long...why was i afraid?

fear.

it can over take your life if you are not careful.

then another thought of mine is this:

what is beauty?
do we really look on the inside to find that beauty?
how much weight do i have to lose to get for a guy to consider to get to know me?

could you answer these questions for me?


soo.......if you get to know me, i'm a much deeper person than i can come out to be. . . there is more on the inside than you can tell. . . im good at hiding my true feelings- so when you can see into me and see my true self, or get me to reveal that to you.....then i'll know its you.

it makes me cry

Cry [station2]

You tried to speak to me
But I pretended I couldn’t hear You.
Come again, come again now…
I pushed You away from me
Forgot the reason why I breathe.
And looking back, looking back now…
Makes me cry
It started small but then it lead
To a place I never dreamed
I was far from who I claimed to be.
My love grew so cold
I hurt the ones that I loved most
And looking back, looking back now…
I was at the edge of losing it all
But You pulled me back
You saved me.
And thinking how long
You waited for me
With open arms.
Makes me cry tears to You--
Cry my praise to You--
Cries to You Lord.
I’m coming back, coming back now.
No looking back now.


tears of regret turning into tears of joy

when life throws you a curveball

I'm just going to start out with how God says it because it is far better than my own words:

“My thoughts are nothing like your thoughts,” says the Lord.
“And my ways are far beyond anything you could imagine.
For just as the heavens are higher than the earth,
so my ways are higher than your ways
and my thoughts higher than your thoughts." Isaiah 55:8-9

Wow.

That's pretty clear that in life we are not always going to know what is going on, or why something happened or why things catch you off guard, or how life can take a turn if you don't have your eyes on the road in which God has you walking on.

Life isn't always going to be a perfect pitch right over home plate for us to hit a homerun on. Life is going to throw us a curveball to see how we adapt to it. Life's going to throw us a screwball to see how we can handle that one. Life's going to throw us a slow pitch to see if we are paying attention. Life isn't always a perfect pitch, but God is that perfect constant that can help us hit the ball over the fence. Even though life is uncertain, God is certain. With God's "training" we can know how to adapt to life's different pitches. We may strike out a time or two...but then we have that experience behind us and we know what that looks like and we can learn and be ready for what is to come.

God knows all. He knows the outcome of our lives. We just have to listen to (obey) His training in our life. . . He trains us all in different ways to prepare us for the game. It's hard to trust that He does know everything, because sometimes I think I know what is going on and I have it all together and I don't need His training in all aspects of my life- but that's just going to lead to another strike out.

How many times are you willing to strike out? Learn from what has already been thrown at you. So you can step up to the plate with confidence ready to swing that bat, hit that curveball over the fence and finish strong with God waiting for when you run over homeplate. . .